I know that over this weekend, I wasnt behaving at my fullest. I showed attitudes instead of showering love. I grumble instead of caring, I demand instead of understanding. I thought this entire army thing grew my patience and understanding level. I mean I cant deny it did to certain extent... but still, if I could have a even better of P & U level, that would be awesome I bet.

Sigh, I wish I could do even better.

He booked out once a week is actually... a very precious thing. I knew this thing last week, I applied the "theory" and understand how precious it was. But why hadnt I make full used of it this week.

Still, I stayed over Friday & saturday, I mean its good still, to have him on bed together... But right here am grumbling about the lack of my understanding level. I didnt even gave in to him (few hours) before he went into tekong, but an hour before he went in, I did, we did played peace. :)

I dont know why but this army, it seems like he grew and became more dependent on me. and it seems that he'd fallen in love all over again with me. That was sweet though but still, why am I not being understanding like I expected even myself?

:(

allow next week to be better please, I bet. :)

*im sorry, my baby*

anyway, over the weekends , we'd KFC on Friday dinner/Supper, and on Saturday was to Ikea and the day ended pretty early. and on Sunday, all the family went over to East Coast TungLok to have early lunch. 8-10 course lunch thingy. :)

*yums*

Jerrome and his *familiar* cousin Sheldon~















*my favourite picture now*

I.cant.literally.wait.seeing.you.at.Pasir.Ris.

I.cant.wait.to.just.hold.your.hand.

I.cant.wait.to.cuddle.in.the.huge.arms.of.yours.

I.cant.wait.to.sleep.beside.you.

I.cant.wait.to.see.that.youre.the.first.person.I.feel.when.I.wake.

Baby, there's so much things about you I cant really wait.

what.kinda.sunday.is.this.

everything did done or doing dont seems to be at its best. I feel lazy for most of the time (Today) and I dont know why.

It cant be because im jobless what. Could it be because I'm not out? no what, I dont really feel like going out. Could it be that exams are coming and I'm not mugging hard enough? Could it be that erm.. I feel.... (that my hair should undergo some treatments before I see the world?) Fuck it man, it must be that.

whatever it is lah, the weather today is killer shit balls. I should be going for a cooooool shower with scrubing & cutting my nails. and then I'll clean my room up and then I will write on the calender on whats up this week plus try to do my notes and finally, finish reading the Sunday Times! :)

I shalllllll mannnnn .


xoxo!

I kinda feel going to Gym(For me) on an individual point of view is a total useless shit balls thing. Cuxz the fats will only eventually start to burn when you're on the trackmill AFTER 20 mins which means the 20 mins you ran earlier on are "starting up" and thats very sad to say/ know Cuz I always only manage to run for that 20 mins . . omFG* i always dont have the habit of using my 2.5$ to the fullllest . Fuck it mannnnn , wana exercise the best thing WOULD BE WALKING AND CONTROL DIET. CONFIRM. OR maybe, cycling.

(Met up with Wanting for gymming at 11am...)

-

Evening/ Night to Summer Breeze(Pasir Ris) damn.nice.lor.ok.lah. nice foods, cheap alcohols and boys to see , WAHAHA. (JK)




















*yums*

i
bring
jerrome
here
next
time
!
:)


After that we kinda got lost, I mean, we dont really have any ideas where should we go.. so, yadayada, we went to her house slack instead! Watch Jielun's world tour's concert on her AVA screeen! :)

chilled slack and just talk about anything . .

* actually its quite gd like this then having to go squeeeeezy places * Life is too hectic so why make it worse even on a weekend? * :) * once in awhile can lah though * hahaha * :)> *

I probably is missing my Boy quite much.

I left my job.

I am happy, Happier, relieve, relieve-r. :)


I can say I tendered, I also can say you terminated me.

I dont have much feelings for this job. Cuz right from the begining i didnt put in too mcuh efforts for the people. for the colleague to be specified.. and when I left, no one really cared. actually I do not too. but still, I appreacite liaogas saying he'll miss me, and aaron asking if im alright. I can hardly catch your expression, your thoughts and whats not, still, I appreciate certain things we've shared, and gladys for calling me . .

:)

actually at times i do wish im a tai tai, doing nthg but have endless money, do nails everytime, dressed up, go town facial everyday, enjoy hitea, whatever. i havnt had a taitai life. just when??

Jerrome's first book out.:) 16.11.2010* our 69th Months*-

Grats my baby, you made it passed the initial period! You're doing great. Please hang it there. :)>

seeing him in his uni, actually is a very proud thing. . all the grumblings and nots, misses or what, you just wished you could melt all out into his arms. This bad, the misses were this massive. .


















(Handsome huh!)

Of course, we did spent our night in quality. . no quarrels, no shoutings, no rudes, just updates, loves, hugs&kisses. .

This army, made me feel more love. like as though he was falling back in love. (you know those initial love birds....) yes, he gave me this feeling. it was this.... assuring.

This army, made me grow to become more understanding, patience, and whats not, tolerate.

This army, made me not waste any of his time off cuz i just cant afford to. I cant possibly wait 7 days, or maybe 5, (Feeling lousy).

This army, made me go according to him. .


Even if its 7am in the morning, i know his a very goodboy who wana (also) spend time with his mom and me, and that he cant afford his mum to go marketing alone, he asked if i could accompany him together with his family at 7 am.

How can i say no, if i did, I would have go against this little filial boy, isnt it... and of course i did wake up.:)>


xoxo,

9 days.

Jie yong yao hui jia le.!!!:D Yay! <3<3<3

I miss wo de xiao bAo~:)

Party with my old fame. :) <3*


Being with her gave me a very familiar feelings.

rude, vulgar, sweet, kaopeh, shout. all in one.- my winwin sista.*

I don't know how to literally expressed my happiness on being able to touch my own reddy lappy right now!:D I feel so safe and just familiar with all the settings, keypads, and whats not. I so......love my laptop. yay*!!!!

Before I kick start the completion of my project assignment, lemme just type something out here. Perhaps I needed it, very badly.

To work: I didnt know eversince how long ago my energy for this job had depleted unknowingly. I dont really feel it coming, but my dear boss reminded me. and and that actually made me wondered did I really.... lost the "interest" momentum or whatever you called it.

Everyone talks about figures. If you are not able to produce the sales figures, who really cares where you're coming from. Cuz no one just do. I dont see why should I be running after something which are eventually not intending to imprint my foot steps. I dont see why am I not being rewarded accordingly even i worked extra harder. I dont see and understand the screwed up commission scheme?

I cant believe that this sales job brings me no where. Even if I fucking hell close big orders I dont get a shit, I dont get the basic commission pay out. Why? Because I didnt Hit target. Fuck tard, no? yes.

Having to be in different kinda sales industry short or longer term, this is the first ever I got calls over the weekends and still stay up after 6pm, with no commission. Fuck? yes.

Tell me what should I do? If I were to leave right now, it'll most probably freak the colleagues out there. like *bo tai bo ji* suddenly leave. haiz, Fuck THis ShIT.

To Jerrome: massive misses* Thats all I can say. having just to survive with the virgin call of the night and living with the only Text at 530am, actually is quite tideous for me. what happens in between? *mAssive.misses* siGhx.

but thats the place he eventually grow....... *jIayou. he must be missing home fucking badly. 5 days baby, its coming. hang it there, you;re doing good.

and To SChoOl: I gona start mugging my assignment before its TOO late cuz its dued tml. and to school again, they are my final modules and to my school again, my examination is coming in 3 weeks time. Fuck it? yes, no?

I will work hard.

my dearest boyfriend is home sick! *Wish I could do something, sigh!

I miss you:'(

I didnt really expect myself to go over his place a night before he got shipped in, cuz our initial plans is to go Macs' after my make up lesson. But he ask me to go over saying he wana hug me to bed.sweet only, but it was indeed.

nobody really likes seperation, we could be this long and fight or quarrel almost very often, but still when it narrows down to saying goodbyes, actually it sucks.


Before we grow older and have other forms of needs and wants, I just wana be reminded (again) that Jerrome is the boy or man to be, whom I am and is still madly in love with.

xoxo,

Good luck my Jerrome.

Post Army symdrome-

all the poor girlfriends out there suffer along with their botak boyfriends.. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww~ that's so....*&^%$#@! okay actually (its hitting nearer and fucking near, 2 damn it days O.O) :<( I hope everything would just be ALL fine. Im not sending him off to Tekong cuz you know I'll definitely cry like a baby. and he do not want to cry toO? haha. so i just have to guai guai go work lor.:(<

But this enlistment, I dont feel so isolated. Cuz i've many boy-friends who is also enlisting in between that week(8th-12th) so I guess Jerrome wont feel so lonely too? and I bet im not the only GirlFriend who is going to suffer. >.<

I spent my long weekends over at Jerrome's place for consecutively 3 days. we didnt do alot alot or go alot of places but it was overall okay. I thought it sucked but actually its okay la, I guess the 2 weeks gona fly by. *prays. I've a list of 'To-Do-s' and hope to really do it.

:

Do I still have time to buy him a SomethinG? *Wonders.

You know I'll miss you when you got shipped into Tekong. TakeGoodCare- my circle head.*<3*

(Just when I wanted to finally type something, my dear boss appeared from whereever he is)

I didnt bring my laptop back for my project assignment. That means for the next few days or maybe a week, I gona be seen busy mugging like a bitch. :(< sad shit.

Jerrome will be enlisting in about 4 days(in exact) I dont know how should I be feeling..... I guess I am... alright now just that I know still, it wont be easy for me to handle when it really strike. Cuz I'm quite involved in him though we dont meet every single day but still, its been 5 years many months, we were really close I should say. So having to leave me for a few weeks actually to me hurts but I guess ultimately it is a very good thing cuz he finally gona become a man. :)

I guess I gona be busy burying myself with whats not, projects, studying for exams, and.... what, meeting up with friends lor!:)> hahaha.

Anyway we went zoo again, the last visit was 2 years ago.. this time round we went with Sheldon & his Girlfriend, after that we'd sakura.. shall load soOoOoOoN.

back to work liao, goodbye!:D